Today hasn’t been the best day ever, but that’s the way it is sometimes. I’ve unfortunately become used to a daily life where things happen all the time, so a quiet day at the office can feel a bit weird. It feels like I’ve missed something or like it’s not been efficient enough. There’s a lot of strategically important decisions to make in all companies and the answers aren’t coming to me as clearly as they usually do so I have to wait until I hit the nail on the head. It makes me feel really frustrated. But after 12 years as an entrepreneur, I’ve learned to live with that feeling. There’s a bit of a love-hate thing going on. It ALWAYS leads to good things but the road there is tough. After a meeting I got stuck in today I chose to go out for a bit afterwards. I bought a cup of coffee and got some sunshine and fresh air. Something experience has taught me is to know when it’s time for a break instead of staying around for an hour (or two) and try to find a solution or way forward.
I noticed that I was lacking patience when I got home with the kids. But I zoomed out to a helicopter perspective after I had dinner and then I realized I just had to let everything go and focus on being a mom instead. The rest can wait. Having a lot of things going on at the same time can be heavy and being able to press pause and choose where to put your focus is a real art and I’m getting better at it but it’s not easy. It’s not about letting go of everything but learning to take a break. When the kids are asleep I get to go ahead again. It’s a mompreneur-art.
It’s almost ten o’clock and I’m going to pause for the evening (I’ve spent two hours on the phone) and read before I fall asleep. The kids are asleep in their beds and I’ll probably hear them come over to my bed soon. I love the sound of their little footsteps. I notice how they think it’s extra cozy to crawl into bed with me when my reading-lamp is on and I have a book up. Right now, I’m reading ; I was so much fun to drink wine with: a rapport from a sober alcoholic by Rebecka Åhlund. I decided to stop drinking alcohol in August last year and I barely even think about it anymore. I’ll talk to you tomorrow! Goodnight!